Happy/Sad

Happy/sad. I have referenced that phrase several times lately. Because that is how many of my days lately have been. Don’t be worried. It is not a cry for help, or a sign that I am depressed. As a writer, I enjoy the feeling of happy/sad, as it helps me feel more, experience more, empathize more.

What is happy/sad? Here is my not so exhaustive list, from movie quotes, to songs, to experiences.

-“Your problem is that you’re not happy being sad. But that’s what love is – happy sad.” (Sing Street, 2016)

-The feeling I get listening to “Auld Lang Syne.”

-Watching my husband drive off to work, missing him the minute he leaves, but loving the fact that I love him so much.

-Watching my children grow up into adults, missing those little child hugs, but enjoying our new adult conversations.

-Memories of my dad, now that he resides in heaven. The best of dads, missing him to tears, but so happy because I know we will see each other again.

-Seeing the leaves fall from the trees, the beauty of the colors tinged with the sadness of the bare trees. But knowing that spring will come.

-Remembrances of Christmases gone by, the special doll, the new bicycle. Knowing new memories are being made, every minute, even still. Happy/sad.

I know you all can add to this list, and I would love to hear your happy/sad things. Please comment below. Enjoy all the moments…..happy, sad, and in between. Relish them all. Live and love your life.

Love, Lisa

Here is a great version of “Auld Lang Syne” by Keith Harkin to enjoy.

Flurry Fly of Energy

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Do you ever have one of those mornings where you have an abundance of energy, but no clear focus? That is definitely me this morning. 🙂 I feel like a newly hatched fly, landing here and there, but not staying very long in any one place. Yet I have an odd sense of excitement.

It always amuses me as to how complex we human beings have been created. Some days we are energetic; others we can barely put two words together. Happy/sad, emotional/stoic, compassionate/hard….the list goes on and on. I am so very thankful that my amazing God holds all of these parts of us together.

So as I buzz about this morning, I will be thankful for the flurry of energy and thankful for this wonderful gift called life. Praying your morning is buzzing along well.

Love, Lisa

Voice

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As a writer, I have two voices. The one that is my best or aspirational self, the one that tries to encourage and uplift. But I also have another writing voice. My brutally honest, venting, cathartic voice, that doesn’t hide the difficulties of life. Outside of this blog, this is the one I have been needing to use lately in my writing.

I have been struggling to write, because these two voices are fighting. Trying to find my real voice, while not being a Debbie Downer, is a challenge. Because writing, or art, or music, is nothing if it is not honest. But all of us, including me, need to be encouraged and lifted up with words, not dragged down.

Where is the truth and honesty and cohesiveness in all this? I think by acknowledging that we are complex creatures created by God to have many different emotions. Happy, sad, confused, excited, angry, hopeful, distant, loving. We have good days, bad days.

So here it is today….just words that are grasping for honesty. Words that are saying that I don’t know all the answers to anything, but I know the God who does. Words that are attempting to lift up someone else who is struggling to stay positive during all this mess, just by stating something that maybe they are feeling.

Truth. Honesty. There is beauty in that, even if it is hard beauty.

Love, Lisa

A Good Cry

A good cry?  Oxymoron or not?  To me, there is not much better than a good cry….when something moves me so deeply that I must cry.  Extreme beauty, sacrificial love, tenderness, compassion, and yes, an amazing piece of music can reduce me to tears, and I’m glad of it.  Because I feel alive, I feel.  This is one of those songs that welled me up.  It’s much better if you close your eyes when you listen to it.  Let the notes, the beauty of the music take you on a journey.  Blessings, Lisa